My Love

I don’t want to move

When I’m captured here with you

You show me love is true

And I can be with you

Anytime

Anywhere

My heart reaches out

And you are there

I don’t want to move

When you hold me close

Because I can hear your breath

You’re more real than life or death

I wish I had another word than love

To tell you what your touch has meant

You go deeper than I ever expect

You know what I need more than I ever will

I want to know your will

Because I love your thoughts

And I don’t want to move

Unless I feel your heart

Your rhythm is my guide

When we’re one, I can fly

No hindrance, no doubt

Can keep me from these open doors

I am yours

Don’t ever let my mouth confess

Anything other than this

I am yours

You make me beautiful

And worth more than I could ever be

Without you

I don’t want to move

As I’m here with you

But I will if you tell me to

Because all I want is to live for you

You are my love!

Renewal

I am so encouraged. I feel an overwhelming sense of God's pursuit of me and his mercy. He has opened my heart to desire humility and a renewed mind. I need my mind constantly, daily, hourly renewed. His mercy reminds me to not pursue my own ideas and ways, even if they seem amazing, but to submit all my thoughts to him. At times I am too rash. I make decisions because they seem so right. But if something is right but not of God, it's worth nothing. All I want is Him. A desire to seek Him burns within my heart. I pray that it keeps burning and keeps burning. True freedom is found when we have acknowledged our nothingness and found our being in Him. When we become one with the one who made us. It's how we're meant to live. There is freedom in His life. When will we finally get this and stop thinking so much of our own thoughts?

The Rain

It's raining. I can hear the drizzle right outside of our sliding back door. It's calming, if I let it be of course. I like the rain. It reminds me that everything is okay, because it is steady. Likewise, God's love is steady. Unfailing. When the rain stops I know it's not over. I know I will live to see another day of rain. Every day I can wake up knowing that God loves me. Sometimes that's all that keeps me alive. It's all that makes me hold on and keep doing what I'm doing. And when I feel like I'm going nowhere, and that all I do is in vain, I remember the rain. He is steady. He is faithful. He won't let me labor in vain, for I am his child. There are things I don't see. Sometimes I would like to see them, but he doesn't always allow me to. I don't always like to trust. That's just being very honest. But trusting is the only way that I'm going to live NOW. As much as I try to see what's ahead or grasp at some sort of escape, the now is still there, under the surface of it all. I must face it and embrace it. I must dance in the rain of the moment.