Monday, January 17, 2011

Fill


The pain wrought by life
Inflicting desperate souls
Tires aching hearts
Who can find their home?

No place where we belong
The love we find soon grows old
When will it ever stop?
Surrounded, why do we feel alone?

Pressed in on every side
Fake smiles exchanged, implying hope
Touches linger for moments
We wish we could hold

But we lose our grip before we can
Understand what it’s for
The memories fade
And somehow only pain remains

We look for something real
Every day, a search
But by setting of the sun
We forget why we even started

What can fill our aching hearts?
Who will hold us when we hurt?
Are we doomed to emptiness all our days?
Or is there hope that lingers, a sun with lasting rays?

Why would this question remain
If not there be an answer?
Why do our hearts awaken
At times, if no hope exists?

The calling of our Maker
Resounds inside each soul
We won’t find rest until
We know He is our home

So let Him love you now
Tell Him how you feel
When you open up
Every wound He will heal

He’s calling out your name
It is not you who can save
His mercy chooses, in pain
To reach to you, for your own gain

Give your life to Him
And your suffering will not be in vain
For He is worth the tears
And He’ll remain, through all your years.

I Am

I know the greatest story of all. I do not boast with conceit, for I do not consider myself to be the most qualified to tell of this story. Nevertheless, I know it. It is the greatest because it is the truest, proclaiming a longed for hope for all of mankind and the entire universe.
This story begins with an artist. An artist possessing many names, the most all-inclusive being I Am. This artist named I Am existed before time began, existed before anything else began. He was the origin of all life, of all meaning and purpose. He was the Three-in-one, living in intimate fellowship as the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. He was fulfilled—he had no needs, though his heart was bursting with desires. He was so happy with his intimacy in relationship that he just had to give it away, to share it. He was an artist, after all, so in divine creativity he made something that never existed before—the galaxies and the Earth. He took great delight in creating so many different elements, species, and forms of life, with so many different colors, shapes, designs, textures, and purposes.
But his most prized creation was man.
Man would share in the sweet fellowship belonging to the Three-in-one. Man was made in the very image of I Am. Man would have a deeper purpose, a higher greatness, than he himself could even know.
But there existed evil. I Am did not create it—it was the disobedient choice of a high-ranking heavenly being who allowed pride to steal his devotion to the Originator. Lucifer was his name. Lucifer, now embodying evil itself, needed somewhere to spend his passions, his unfulfilled desires. So he chose I Am’s favorite creation, man, to corrupt.
Sadly, man fell for the deceptive beauty of Lucifer in Paradise, where he was tempted to disobey I Am’s single command. The one evil act led to another, and another, until man’s appetite for evil seemed to overtake his desire for intimacy with his Creator. The world was corrupted, and Lucifer thought he won the great battle.
But it was only the beginning.
I Am could not bear to be separated from his prized creation because of their evil choices. He was Love itself, unwilling to relent his deep passion for sharing his intimacy and fellowship. So he did the most painful, most humble thing of all—he sent the Son to become a man, from birth to death, fully man, yet fully the great I Am. His name was Jesus Christ.
He came to identify with man, to love the ones who hungered for evil, to teach the ways of the Father, to remind man of his original identity and destiny to walk with the Creator, to truly live. But man did not understand or refused to accept the teachings of I Am’s Son. Because it did not make sense to them that I Am would appear in human form they rejected his life-giving message and sentenced him to die.
But you see, it was I Am’s plan all along. There must be blood to atone for man’s sinful nature. It was the only way for man to again live in fellowship with the Creator. So The Father allowed the Son to be crucified, and to bear the burden of every sin in his own soul. I Am himself, the perfect one who always was, took man’s share of shame, blame, and punishment, just so he could be with him forever. But it was not the end.
Jesus rose from the grave, proclaiming victory and hope for generations of men to come. It is a high cost to follow I Am, but an even higher one to not. For what can we do when we know what it is we were created for? Is he worth everything to us? Can’t we give him everything we have, after he spent everything for us? It is truly the least we can do.
The story continues. Step in and discover your role.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Moved


I am moved by the breath of my Creator. My spirit opens up, and my body moves, guided by a strong hand at my back. I depend on him. I take risks, knowing he is holding me. I am safe with him. No evil can touch me. For when I open my heart to him, he invades me but guards me from negative influences. When I am closed to him, I am open to darkness.

Soften my heart of stone
Tear open my beating heart
So it beats for you alone
Open my unseeing eyes
So you can guide me on the path that’s right
So I can see your beauty is greater
Than the biggest obstacle
Beyond the realm of fantasy
Your glory
Your beauty
Your impossibility
Is what’s real
Move me
In your dance
For when I move in your presence
I know I am alive
You are good news
For we long for something real
Something beautiful
Something to inspire us
And you are real
And you are beyond our wildest imaginations
Right here
Right now
Taking us into your heart
Plumbing the depths of your love
Open me up
Close me off
To what’s evil and dark
So I can be the light you speak of

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Helpless


Take me off guard
Catch me unsheltered
Encounter me exposed
So I can’t resist
But I helplessly melt
Under your ruthless pressure
A scream is boiling up
From deep deep inside
For I can do nothing
Until this intensity subsides
The pain becomes unbearable
But I don’t want to budge
Until you’ve done what you came for
And I am utterly undone
Love my dying heart
With your relentless hand
Diffuse the evil within
Until my flesh is dead and you win
Come to me unveiled
So I can see the fierce beauty
Of your holiness and purity
Where all I’ve done that’s good
Is put to shame
Where all I am without you
Is worthless and to blame
I bend involuntarily
While your glory undoes me
Yet I am fully content
For I’ve been met
By the power of my Maker
By a love this world knows not
And through the pain of my dying
I find life
A life a never knew possible
So meet me unguarded
Yank my heart to yours before I pull back
So I can’t breathe on my own
So all I am is all I lack
For only in you do I count any gain
Only for you can I endure this pain
Only in your love will I never be the same
You capture me and give me your name

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

The End of Me


I held his hand.
A simple gesture, and yet it changed my life.

I didn’t realize how often I had overlooked significant moments in my life until the day I had come to my end. I still had everything: money, friends, something to be a part of, possessions. But this was the day I came to see how empty I would be without the Love of my world, without my Creator’s spirit pulsing life through my chest. I felt, for the briefest moment, that He had left me, and everything fell apart. Confusion reigned in the domain of my soul. I couldn’t look anyone in the eyes and tell the truth, I couldn’t receive consolation from my friends. No one cared, and I didn’t expect them to. I had utterly failed. I didn’t even know what the truth was anymore, and I never, never thought I would come to this point. Everything had always been handed to me, generously, everything I based my life on. But what would I do when the choice was mine?

Throw it all away.

See, I hadn’t paid for it—someone else had. And I didn’t understand the price they paid. Frankly I didn’t care. I thought I cared, but when it came down to it, my own reputation and comfort was more important to me than anything. Well, not anymore. Not after my eyes were opened to the hideousness of my ways, to the rebellion in my soul, and the way I had hurt the ones I claimed to love the most. The confusion was eating me alive, and I didn’t know what to do. Until I let Him speak and reveal what was so obvious.

I had failed.
But.

But—He already knew I would. He knew this when He gave His life for me, years ago. He knew I would break His heart and hurt His other children, but He still gave His blood for me. I was covered. All I had to do was accept what had already been done.
But how? I was racked with guilt. What should I do?

Receiving my pardon will be your most humbling act.

That’s what He said, and I knew He was right. When I chose then and there, kneeling on the floor, alienated from the rest of the human race, to let His love flood my heart, the shame was lifted and I saw Him for who He really was. Kind. Merciful. A Creator who paid the ultimate price for His creation. The one to whom I owed my life, not the one who I was entitled to partake of.

I saw Him then.

He looked right at me with the deepest eyes of love, and He drew me right into His story. He said I would have to pay a price, but that it would be worth it. Well, I had come to the end of myself—what did I have to lose?

I took His hand.
Actually, He took mine.

Have you ever held your Creator’s hand? You would know if you have. For your life would never be the same. Grab on. He’s already reaching for you.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Lost

You fill the sky
With wonderful splendor
The angels sing and stand in awe
Of beauty beyond this world
And I stand speechless
Lost in your eyes
The forgotten sensation
Fills me now
This is what I’m made for
Hold me now
Hold me forever

You fill my heart
With glorious life
I see your world
It lies beyond the naked eye
But tonight I know
You are here
Tonight I know
You have always been near
Times past and times present
And days yet to come
You’ll be by my side
Until I am undone

Your mercy undoes me
Your look pierces me
I cannot retreat
When it is you I meet
My flesh protests
But my spirit cries yes!
You overpower
My soul in this hour

I yearn to know you God
I want to live with you
Seeing beyond what can be seen
Hearing more than forgotten religion
For you are true
More true now than in my past
So I will not leave
I will embrace this heavenly beauty
And know the life
That makes me who I am

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Longing

My longing heart
Beats inside
Not always steady
But always seeking
For the life
That I must find

You are my
Desperation
The fire in your eyes
Fuels my hunger
And I must linger
In your holiness
Until I have you
Until I see
What life is meant to be

You are my passion
My full desire
I don’t want to sit here
And let the lies grow higher
But I want to see
The Truth shine brighter

You are my life
And I am finding
That when I know you
I am my truest self

Let me be lost
Cus I’m waiting to be found
By a truth and holy fire
That will meet this heart’s cry

I don’t want to deny
Your power or your love
No limitations
Will bind the spirit of the Living God
And you live in me
This I must really see.
Help me to believe!