There’s nothing like smashing your finger to let out pent up emotions. Sometimes, when I don’t understand the Kingdom of God, I feel as if God leaves me. I can remember amazing wonderful times where He has met me and turned my life around, or flooded me with his love. But I let what people say confuse this assurance. But no, I won’t believe it. He has not left me. And He never will. And also, I think it’s okay to cry. He understands. He holds me. He never leaves me.