"Source" and "Take Flight" (A prayer and response)

This first poem starts out as an expression of frustration and a prayer that expresses my desire to be closer to Father so He can work and create through me.
The second I believe is His response. Let Him speak to you where you're at today. He wants to, with all His heart, even if you don't feel it.

Source

How much time can I waste

Thinking I have no words to say?
I’m on the edge of disgrace
Tears threatening to streak down my face
I’ve lost sight of your grace
In this moment
When all inside me wants to live with meaning
I sit around idly and can’t feel you
I know you haven’t left
Because if you had I’d have tasted death
But why do I sit here, lonely
When you’ve given me your voice
And I always have a choice
I need your love, what can I say?
I’m an orphan here, just waiting for that day
When I’ll know I’m wanted
I don’t mean to say I’m ungrateful
Or that it’s not true
By my heart doesn’t always feel as it should
Until I pursue yours
So teach me, Father
As I sit here, without words
Scraping and scrounging, trying to discern
What it’s all about
I’m lost just like all the rest
I have nothing your mercy hasn’t sent
So keep me humble and keep me open
But don’t let me forget that I don’t have to be broken
Forever
Hold me now, hold me close
I want to hear your breath, the bob of your throat
I need to know your warmth, your soft, gentle voice
That steals all the lies, that hushes the chaos
In my mind
You’re stirring in my life
I’m coming away with you
For what else can I do
In the midst of this pain
In the midst of all we’re going through?
You’re the anchor to my soul
The rose that teaches me to unfold
The warrior that opposes all my foes
And brings me near to your kingly throne
The words are there, barely
Scratching the fringes of your presence
But do my eyes see?
Open
Open up
Climb deep inside and show me
Who you are
How life speaks and points to you
As the source
Father hear my prayer
Your daughter’s waiting here
Not knowing what to ask
But not satisfied without your touch

Take Flight

Rest from your striving soul

Give it to me, I’m in control
Of every care, every worry
Everything uncertain in your mind
I hold in a bottle of time
For I stand outside
So
Let go, don’t you know
That I want you free?
That my yoke is easy
If you let me carry
All the loads, the confusion that overflows
Into your heart
The sacred place where our love started
Child, you invited me in
But I can’t live in a place so cluttered
With thoughts that are scattered
And not meant to be
Look at me
For I am here
And my very presence in your life
Trumps any fear
That tries to tell you you’re not good enough
You’re not
So embrace it fast so I can be
Your everything
Dear one, you are precious to me
I am not mad or absent
I am fully me
And you see, to be fully me is to be love
I see
Through eyes that wed the dirty sinner
When he was not yet clean
And I see you now
Pure as can be
A child full of destiny
That belongs to me
So come away and be mine
Detach yourself from what binds
And blinds
And find that my life
Flows through and makes a way
For you to not only get through this day
But be alive to my creative design
Take joy and take delight
For even in the fight
You’ll soon take flight