HOPE

Can you hear me?

I just want to know

If anyone out there knows

Who I am

I’m not the girl you think

My heart has died

I can’t feel anymore

Not like I used to

My body contracts without tears

I’ve been here too many years

Would you recognize me

If you saw me now?

I don’t know.

I barely see the light of day

They tell me to stay and I do

Not because I want to

But because my will perished long ago

The only will I have is the will to live

But even that is fading away.

Am I anything anymore?

Does my voice make a sound

As I lay here on the ground?

What’s this I hear?

What’s this I feel?

A tear, pushing itself through?

It can’t be, no!

I won’t cry, I won’t grasp hope

I used to do that

Until I started to believe what’s real

That I will never be saved.

I’m a daughter?

Whose?

My father disowned me

Nobody loves me.

But I feel your hand

It’s gentle

Compassionate

Is it really for me?

You love me you say

You love me, is it true?

Don’t do this to me

My heart is already torn in two!

I’m rescued, I’m saved!

I never believed in this day,

But you broke the chains

I am breathing again

Oh it’s been so long

Can I ever be

The little girl I once was?

That and more, you say

And I trust you

I AM FREE

Making Room

In our garden made for two
You asked me to make room
You said, "open up your heart
It might hurt, but I did it too."
And though it didn't seem
There was much room for them
I let them in
And our garden grew.

At times I've asked you why
I must go through the pain
And you remind me that
You did the same.
You came to love the lost
The sinners, cheats, and liars
And I must do that too
Or I am chief among them.

I've opened up our garden
And I find that when I close the gate
With even just a little bit of hate
I can't feel you anymore.
But it's never too late.
I open up again, feel the pain
But experience the sweetness
Of sharing in your gain.

Our garden made for two
Is made for so much more
And when I give away
What is really yours
I go deeper in your heart
And love you even more.

Awaken!

You inspire me to dance. I can't hold back. When I see who you truly are, even just a little, my heart bursts with excitement. When I see who you are, I have purpose. No matter what. I have purpose when I am loved. I want my life to emanate who you are. Who you are changes everything. And joy is uncontainable. I've tasted that reality, but I want more! My spirit longs and cries out for it! It's the way I'm meant to live! My heart screams I'm so in love with you! True love makes everything come alive! I don't want to be dead anymore! I will ask you every day, awaken my heart!!!