The Garden

Do you see me?
My heart?
Is it soft as a child’s?
Is my hand tender
When you take it in yours
Does it resist your pull?
I want freedom
Liberty
I wan to run in your garden
And catch a glimpse
Of your beauty
I’m looking for you
Discovering mysteries
Daddy where are you?
You’re here somewhere
I can’t wait to run into your arms
And then I’ll escape
Laughing
But wanting only
To be caught by you
I’ll peek out from behind
Your flowers
Planted just for me
Then I’ll dance
In the sunlight
That brightens my eyes
You’ll spin me around
I’ll have no cares
Just delight
As we roll on the ground together
Lost in wonder
In our love for each other
It’s nothing I could deserve
But you make me a child again
A mature child
One ready to rule
But I won’t forget to dance with you
In your garden
My daddy
Is the King
And I know I can come
Whenever I please
For I am indeed free.

I Don't Have to Understand

My heart it beats with one desire
Or how I want it to
Is it truly ripped in two
Or do I just feel what I’m supposed to?
Are we to go about our lives
In either boring days
Or endless pain
And accept it as it comes?
Or is there a way to live and die
Suffering at a great price
But taking delight
In the one we love the most?
Should I cease my questioning heart
My longing mind
And realize
That to live is to die
Even if dying means separation?
Separate, but don’t lose my heart
Allow the pain
Because it’s worth it?
I won’t shut down
I’ll feel what he wants me to feel
After all
I love him the most
But just don’t let me boast
In myself
And don’t let me stray
And get in the way
Firm trust
In the midst of storms
My heart no longer dead
Nor fearing the norm
Or the empty
Because life with you
Life for you
Has no comparison
To anything else
I don’t understand
This life
But you gave it to me
So I’ll trust
When I don’t know where to go
No belonging
No clear future
You are my home
And I’ll follow
The cadence
Of your sweet voice.

I Exist For Him--Bottom Line

I am being blown away by the basics of the very faith I claim to be my own. Revelation is stacking itself up in my heart, and my life cannot be the same. The way I think and live cannot be the same. A daughter(son) of God is led by the spirit of God. Whoa. Wait, now, that's all I have to do? Listen, be open, obey God, follow him in everything? Yes, that is what I have to do. I have to. Because now if I don't, I'm denying my own true desires, which are born of the spirit of God. I have been trying, without acknowledging it, to fill some kind of void I thought I had by filling my time with things that lacked true value, with buying "good" things just to make myself feel better. No! I don't need any of that! He is all I need! Really. If I don't burn for him alone, if I don't give my whole life to his purposes, I have nothing. I don't want nothing. Not anymore. I want Him! And that means doing whatever He tells me to do; saying, speaking, acting on His every word. And staying put if He has not given the go-ahead. I exist for Him.

I Need You

I give into you
Do what you want to do
I let go of fear
Won’t you take me and draw me near?

I give in
I let go
I don’t ever want you to go
Your words are life
Your words are true
And everything I do
Is nothing
Without you

My heart is yours
That’s all you want
It doesn’t matter what I thought
Before

You are right
I am wrong
I’m ending this fight tonight
And I’ll offer more than a song

Break me down
Hear me cry out
Overtake
Awaken inside of me

Desperation
Is my confession
I don’t ever
Want it to be different
I need you more than
Anything
Whether I believe
It or not

So keep me here
In this place
So I can see you face to face
I would die
If I did not realize
I need you
Father
I need you

All in All

Unimaginable wonder
Unthinkable power
God of love
Coming closer
Responding to seekers
Your strength does not withhold
Your tender touch
Your breath brings life
But destroys the unjust
When we suffer
You are there
Holding our hands
Remembering the pain
When we rejoice
You dance with us
Lead us in your step
We don't want to fall.
Unfathomable depth
Merciful Presence
Powerful Ruler
We lay down
To give you the place
You are due
Does it look
Like home to you?

Impossible Dreamers

Move my heart
To flow
In your life!
Rhythm of my soul
Blow and make me whole.
Wholly yours
Holy, yours,
I take your blood,
Receive what you've done
So you may be
The breath in me.
Speak, Father,
Tell of your plans
Envision your sons
To awaken the land!
Reach deep,
Enliven dead places
Your glory to conceal
Every darkness in my face.
Enlighten
Revive
Stir up
Burn alive
One Desire
Forever Fire
We are yours
Your Impossible Dreamers!